On April 16th Easter night I was lying beside my husband when a vision began. I saw the Holy Spirit in the form of a dove and He was flying out in front of me in a night sky. After asking Him about my pastor and Jeff Jansen, I asked what I should speak about on Thursday night. A pulse of energy went out of Him. He turned towards me and in an audible voice said, “JESUS IS THE LIGHT OF THE WORLD!” Then He said, “Jesus is the Dawn”. He had recently said those same words to me, Jesus is the Dawn.As I absorbed the impact of those words, I asked, “Can I see Him?”
I had just been reading Matthew 5 before Douglas came to bed, and stopped at, “Ask and you shall receive.” So I thought I’d asked.
Immediately the Holy Spirit was gone and I saw something move closer to me from a distance. I could feel His presence before I could see Him. Then just in front of me, covering my entire span of vision was the face of a lion. It was simply looking at me. Its eyes were blinking. I began to struggle for breath. My heart was beating quickly. He moved so close to my face that I couldn’t see much of Him. “Why do you look like a Lion?” I asked. He said, “That’s the only way you could take me.” I knew that He was referring to how I was struggling to calm down because I was responding physically because the emotional impact was intense.
My legs began to shake. My pinky and ring finger on my right hand also began to jump. I noticed that the two next fingers were not moving at all and I wondered why that was happening.
He moved closer. “Move back. I can’t see you,” I said. He said, “I’m going to come in closer.” He slowly placed His forehead onto mine. As I began the almost excruciatingly emotional process of realizing that His actual face was on my face, I began to literally gasp for air and the shaking became what a small seizure would be like.
While I was trying to settle down He said, “Blessed are those who are pure in heart, for they shall see God”. I answered this by saying that my heart was not pure. He dismissed this and said, “I say that your heart is pure in this.” “Why are you telling me this?” I asked. His reply was because I will need to know, in the near future, that He says that my heart is pure. I understood Him to be referring to something that will happen where my motives or integrity are in question. I began weeping because of the emotional impact, the freedom, which I felt from this reassurance.
As time passed I was finding it more and more difficult to handle, physically, what was happening. My right arm began to tingle and go numb. My entire face began to vibrate and feel as if it wasn’t getting enough oxygen. Everything below my stomach was practically seizing.
“Are you able to handle this?” He was making me aware that I would need to tell Him when I couldn’t handle it anymore. As if He was leaving it up to me to say when. I said, “I can take it, please don’t leave.” He didn’t respond.
After a moment He said “Feel this? Feel this?” He was pressing His face to my forehead, and I could feel what a horse snout feels like, on my forehead and nose. The rest of my face was tingling. He was showing me that I was feeling this physically to help me believe it after it was over.
“Why are you doing this?” I asked.
“Because you asked,” He replied.
It got to be too much then and I said that I couldn’t take anymore. He moved off of me a few feet and His image faded. He told me to tell Douglas then what was happening. Doug was becoming frightened because I was being so affected physically. When I finished telling Douglas, Jesus, in the form of the face of a Lion, said, “Now you see through a glass darkly, but soon you will see me face to face.” He emphasized the word ‘to’, implying that the text in ! Cor. 13 actually meant that when we see Him face to face He will actually place His forehead upon ours, face TO face.
This intimate image of affection and love will be forever deeply important to me.